amazing

I was reading this uhm reading assignment that yeah I dont know if I have to read it because we really dont talk about it in class. so laziness strikes that I dont read it thoroughly deeply.

So much for the information about the picture but one thing that struck me with this are the words…

THE MORE THINGS CHANGE, THE MORE THEY REMAIN THE SAME.

Yeah we went through lots of transitions since the day of my graduation. its been a crazy roller coaster ride, ferriswheel ride, hot air balloon ride. yeah we basically went through different things but yeah i though that we’ll be okay after all of it. uhm yeah, ive always told you that i wont give up on you and i really wont uhm yeah. we’re separated by seas now but I never changed the way I handle you or take you as my best friend. uhm, if theres one thing that i ever ever want to change when youll give me a chance again is that ill really let my immaturity drop down a little bit because youve always reminded me about this uhm i was wrong about the things that i didnt let you do just because…. just because…. just because… of me. of my own sake. of my wants. of that want that I dont wanna lose that attention that you’re giving me. I was wrong about that. since day one, my mission, well im sort of feeling like a superhero with a mission in your life but i wasnt that of a superhero maybe there are times that you thought i was a villain cause I tell you no no not her, not this one, stop that. but really, since day one my mission was to make you happy everyday i will think of stories to tell you so that you wont get bored when we talk, when we go out, i dont know how to make you happy cause you know my situation, im not allowed to go out that often because yeah only child problems so I am not typically used to going out and I dont know how to deal with it or basically to bring out the fun but i really tried & theoretically made up things in my mind before we go out. speaking of those going out sessions i would really really really like to thank you for making those sacrifices i know that there were rules that were crazy but you managed to give me time despite your busy schedule & of course I really count in those efforts that you made just to see me. most of the time you tell me that you’re a bad person but youre not. youre realy not. youre an awesome person. remember that. if theres one favor that i can ask you now well its this one thing. i want you to remember that you are amazing. in everything that you like to do you give in your all & bring out the best efforts that you can. as you go through life i know that youll be an amazing mother because youve got the experience of course handling lots of children but yeah i felt it when you cared about me & told me what should I do with things uhm youre an amazing sister yah, you dont have siblings too but I know that you’re an amazing sister to your friends cousins colleagues students. youre always ready to listen to problems of people and to talk them thats typically what i can always remember about you you love to talk about things & yeah I know youre an amazing sister. i felt that & i know that the ppl that will be with you in the future will know how it feels to have a sister like you. youre amazing in your chosen field, uhm 3 years, ive seen you grow ive seen that you improved each year through experience of course your experiences typically molded you the person you are today uhm way back the i was selfish that i dont want you to stay long in your chosen institution but who i am to choose i mean yeah i was so afraid that i wouldnt know who will be my future foe when it comes to you but i dont care about that now because ive learned my lesson i think that you should stay where you are happy. well lastly, i know that youll be an amazing lover to the person youll spend the rest of your life with. ive got no experience with this one so im not a love guru but one thing that i wanna tell you is that dont ever compare the past with the present, dont ever think of the feelings you had before if you are dealing someone with the present because youll always see the flaws and so just live with the present & love your man like there’s no yesterday & there will be no tomorrow. way back then (the immature me) i was so afraid for you to marry at this point in time cause i know that i wont be the priority because youll probably have your new baby the one that is truly yours because it came out from you i was so afraid of your anniversaries because i know you are ready you are always saying that youre just waiting. so going back i was so afraid because i still wanted to be the baby until i get my degree. but yeah, youre getting old, im getting old too but not that old. so youre getting old and you have to deal with the greater and the harder tasks that the world will give you. so i was so selfish that i dont want you to embark on a new chapter yet but i have to realize that youre getting old & so this is a part of the new me becoming more selfless when dealing with you. lastly, i want you to remember that you’re an amazing person that you can achieve all of your dreams. well not that instant but one day at a time, one step a time this is what i always tell myself so yeah you have a big heart you have a strong faith you are helpful responsible and a person with a big heart & yeah, always remember that youre amazing & everything will fall in their perfect places just like how you dreamed them to be. 🙂

[no brainstorming, no editing, just free writing so puro feels lang to.]